moods

ahh dunno wads w me lately. being emo over dunno wad. mayb its pms. it doesn give me cramps or anything..but i get mood swings. and i use to have an outlet to throw my "lil" tantrums.. but now..its like i have to control myself, and all this stiffling of emotions is making me a cry baby. blah. think i prefer to vent my anger on sumone else. haha oops. guess i'm still not used to being alone yet. haha..some ppl can just go orchard on their own and have lotsa fun shopping ALONE...but i'm too used to having company..and all of a sudden.. i'm goin home strait after sch every other day. I miss her a lot. and him too. i just want to go out w ppl hu i dun haf to entertain. yea i guess i'm more of an extrovert now and i draw energy frm people ard me...but i miss slacking ard w my bestfrens..old or new. but everyone just seems to be unavailable or not there anymore. haha okae i noe i sound completely loserish rite now but i dun care. i'm so sick and tired of havin to think what shud be censored on my blog.