omygucchiness

haha oh mans (yikes this sounds so royston.. HAHA)... i feel so bad rite now. was reading some random strangers' blogs... haha! googled! cos i was just so bored at work. and boy am i blessed by it?! haha ok not just any stranger but just some ppl from church and wow!

ah suddenly i feel like someone has removed the bandage on my eye that has blinded me for so long.

all this time i've been looking at my own problems and wallowing in them such that i wonder whether i have been an encouragement to anyone ard me? haha

i know initially this blog was set up for many reasons... one of them to serve as an encouragement... but reallie.. i think i use it more to kill boredom and vent my frustrations. HAHA

*which i mite be guilty of doin again rite now.*

BUT!!! i am like sooooo tempted to copy and paste some of the stuff i read la. HAHA COPYCAT.


the name of my blog..."who-sthatgirl" haha was partially inspired by a song. hehe and also cos at that point and even right now.. i'm still trying to find myself. haha but i told myself i wanted to be real. i dunwan ppl to look at me and think i'm someone i'm not. haha or rather someone to this grp of ppl and someone else to another. haha its like split personality. *heroes, nicky and jessica* haha! okae not that bad. but yeah combining all the different personalities into one person. then there was the big debate about being a stumbling bloc and all. haha but today reading these ppl's blogs make me realise how certain writings can be of a positive influence on someone else's lives.


haha makes me think of what wendy told me over dinner the other day. which i totally agree. but making it a lifestyle is another thing altogether.


CONFIDENCE
ATTRACTS

the bible says do not cast away your confidence for it brings great rewards.

yep its sinking in now. haha i think the big hoo ha in my academics was such a big hit becos it affected my confidence. my self image.


"It's more important in terms of what is on your inner scorecard than your outer scorecard. Some people get into a position where they thinking all the time what the world is going to think about this or that instead of what they themselves think of it. If you are comfortable with your inner scorecard, you are going to have a pretty happy life. The people who strive too hard for the outer scorecard feel a bit hollow when they get it all through."

haha i kind of wonder why i am so upset over the series of events right now. haha i was just telling zoe that its so sickening to have results that are ok but just not good enuff. i mean they arnt bad... but just not good enuff. but not good enuff for wad? or for who? it will be reallie silly of me to go all crazy chasing after a stupid certificate from a more prestigious uni only to find myself unable t get a job in future becos of its irrelevance. i mean the end point of me wanting that cert is so that i get a good job ultimately isnt it? haha and then i look at my mum. she does not hold a degree.. but she has a high paying job becos of her capabilities and of cos by God's grace. why then am i pulling my hair out over it??