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Blogosphere has been boring lately!! No one is updating their blogs!! hahaa i wanna complain but no right to cos I've been ignoring this space lately as well :S

Shall backdate starting from the most recent updates!

1) SHUANN's ACTUAL 21st!! (1 oct)

spot the difference!! bimbo joke of the day :P

Zara is LOVE

2)Talentinc every Wednesday!

Yesterday was the second lesson for my modelling course... and it was FUN!

Haha pre-lesson was a MAD RUSH though!

Me and cia went to Tekka mall to trim our eyebrows! Did threading for the first time...wasnt as painful as I thought but still painful! Teared quite a bit, but thank God it was FAST!

We also had to submit a photo of ourselves and so spent quite a bit of time taking last minute photos outside NAFA...

After many failed attempts... was so tempted to call kenneth to come help us! LOL. I think I caught a nice shot of cia though! *claps claps*

Rushed down to jurong west and was late!! ZAH!! thats like taboo man. Last lesson Genecia kept emphasizing on punctuality and professionalism :S

haha we were doing our homework on the train though.. and cia kept saying we'll get caught on Stomp cos we were cutting magazines while standing up!

(Our homework was to source out 20 poses and collate them in a file/ book)- Something like a Pose Bank! So that during photoshoots we wun be caught unprepared!

Lesson 2 was more fun cos we did the catwalk and poses thing. haha. thank God for my dancing background cos I think it helped alot when I was doing the catwalk. I think alot had to do with the previous night's OPM too though. Havent really shared with anyone about it yet, but shall do so in a while!

And so I got praised for my catwalk (hehe) except that I was a lil too bouncy and energetic! LOL.

Doesnt matter much though, cos I'm too short to do runway anyway. But still ego food always tastes nice :P Boosts my confidence a lil.

Which is why I decided to join talentinc in the first place. Besides the fact that they'll send us for casting and the possible additional income, even if I dun end up as a model, doesnt really matter, what matters is I've learnt something from the whole course (one of which, is to really build my confidence) and I gave myself the opportunity to try new stuff.

3) Overnight prayer meeting

Was kinda stress out before the meeting cos was rushing my global marketing project and I realise that the song I wanted to lead for praise was too high for me.... the range was one octave from verse to verse...and singing in my falsetto for a praise song will lack the energy/ power. Worse still, mine was the only praise song for the 3rd session.. which was like 2am??

Thoughts of backing out and asking royston or elson to sing for me instead kept going thru my mind. And it was such a struggle, especially when you know you shouldnt be giving up.

Session one was awesome! DT showed us the video below...watch the video and you'll know what I mean...

I know there are areas in my life that I'm still holding on so tightly to...haha one of which is my pride, my "face", my fear of failing...

I thought I overcame my fear after session one and watching this vid...

But when session 2 started... fear just struck me so strongly again... and it was crazy how I felt so lousy about myself...and started comparing myself to others

It was only when it was time for personal communion with God that I felt His presence so tangibly. I was so angry with myself for being so fearful. Its good when someone else speaks into your life, But when God speaks, a personal encounter with God is all it takes. It may be the same simple words spoken in the video, but the difference lies in who said it. Its just like having someone else saying that God loves you, and experiencing the love yourself is totally different!

To me, session 3 was the best!! Not cause praise turned out to be super high and fun... but because I know I overcame. Thanks to all who came up to me and said I did a good job, but really, if not for the encounter during session 2, I probably wouldnt have that much confidence and freedom on stage.

Will always remember what S. Angela said to me and Elson during ldrs meeting, that if we can put our "face" aside, and not be afraid to fail, God can use us in a powerful way.