coming out of the wilderness

Dear God,

Please let me come out of the wilderness this time. I've been waiting for far too long.

Sometimes I really don't understand why You let me go for all these interviews, giving me opportunities to present myself to all the big companies like FJ Benjamin and Estee Lauder, Jay Gee (New Look and Aldo).. companies that I always wanted to work for (or so I think)...

And then, I don't pass the interview. Really. All along I thought my only obstacle was where my degree came from, because that is suppose to open the doors to these interviews. As for the interview itself, I always thought I would do pretty fine, since I have so much practice. But as it turns out, coming from a private uni did not stop me from getting all these interviews.

So deep down, I guess, this is what You want me to know. That your grace is sufficient for me. Because of your grace, You showed me that where I came from did not matter because You are God, and You are for me.

At your will, doors to opportunities may open. And at your will, they may shut as well.

Going through this "wilderness" has once again bring me to a place of dependence upon You. A new level of faith. Knowing that no matter how smart or good I think I am, if I think I can do this without You and on my own strength, boy am I wrong.

I know some people reading this might probably think: wow Jamie, I din know you're so weak. Can't you depend on your own abilities?

Well yes, I admit I'm weak. (Ouch, I really hate to say this out loud sometimes)

But let the weak say I am strong. (Joel 3:10)

Next Monday, I'll be going for my second interview with *Tyan.

*The TYAN group's multi-brand boutiques specialize in European brands, which include Sonia Rykiel, Jean Paul Gaultier and Class Roberto Cavalli. (Tyan Fashion Pte Ltd ,2010)

Really excited yet scared at the same time. Sometimes when I want something too much, I think I screw up even more. LOL.

So to end this on a good note, my graduation ceremony is on Aug 26th! And I'll be graduating with a Degree with Distinction :)

3 years of hard work has finally paid off!